Summer Time and The Living Is…

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Writing Week…

Only on day two of that – struggling a bit with the slow progress I am making – was reminded it is three years since I was on a friend’s fishing boat when researching a Viking Time Shifty YA I had the hots for – hasn’t made it off the note pad as I directed my focus at my most finished stories and designing this site etc – THREE YEARS? Still none of the work is done – yet I work most week days way longer than 8 hour days, don’t garden, sold my sheep, gave up off farm contracting, and rarely ride my horses and the physical strength , fitness and health is disappearing… will it be THIS year? No  earliest I can get HO out there/ up here is next Spring and The Quest series could start going out the following Autumn and that is if we get the house rebuild finished and I don’t stop working at the rate I am – beggars the question why? Why am I doing this?

I look back and I can see how far I have come since I doodled to stop my self going nuts here alone on the farm, I can see where I got my focus and went for it – but now it feels as if those goal posts are moving – I move faster, work longer hours, have started talking a different language than my friends and family  and my previous life is ‘another land’ – on another planet.

So wondering if I live my life in an alternative universe now ? No I am not wondering – I KNOW I do. 🙂

So do I know why I do this? No I just do it is overwhelming – I just do it.

If it is overwhelming why do I keep doing it? I don’t seem to able able to stop.

Proving a point? Not so much – no one says to my face that they think I can’t do it – though I debate the opportunity cost of spending my life on this suddenly rather narrow, stony goat track-  just to see what is on the other side of the mountain range of my imagination – I don’t doubt that one day a finished book or more will be able to be down loaded from this site and others – free or For Sale.

It’s the ‘one day’ bit that could do with being ‘that day’ ‘this day’ ‘today’ – can only re make date and aim for it baring in mind that I don’t want to miss my life staring at a screen and that  S..t Happens. 🙂

I am lucky to have only such small problems and really ‘this Old Goat is not for turning’ so I will pick my way onward  while I still can. 🙂 When I can’t then I will do something else.:)

Perked Up…

Scrivener is going mobile – Yippee!

Drew out a WIP/Body Of Work/ Catalogue Of Work  To Do to try to give my self an overview of  My Big Plan So Far…

When I looked at what I have already written – some finished first draft and some a few ideas and a rough plot but something tangible on each I cheered up as I am in the learning phase now – what takes me a long time now will speed up and each achievement will in it’s self teach and enrich the next – also in having a Big Plan – WHEN I get the first thing live and flapping – I can let it go and move to the next and can hope to avoid the dreaded ‘Now what?’

Scrivener App arrived – and that mean’t an opp to re try Dragon – which I have rechristened Nuisance Software Dragon Elsewhere. I am not complaining – I can’t imagine the hours that go into making soft wares like these that folk are screaming for – in my case my Dorset accent provides more than a few howls and howlers – Oooo and Arrrr 🙂

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Dog Day Chronicles…

Took A Week Off –

Well  worked on Open House Surgery  – but it turned out that  the week – 10 days  I had planned for – was only 5 days including the weekend.:)

Gave me a chance to play with sound recording on my dog walks – many reasons and it turns out to be Good Fun 🙂 I have never enjoyed walking much as I tend to chunder on about things and come back depressed – running doesn’t let me get away with that but neither the dogs or me are up to a lot of running right now..

The sound recording keeps my focus on ideas and constructive thoughts – now I VERY much doubt I will ever link this in to Dragon and be dictating my fiction – and any jokes about me being a Dragon and a Dictator WILL get The Finger. Anything that keeps the mental Black Dog from following us  on our excursions is good – I do all the mindfulness  Black Dog crap collecting techniques I can – but the fact is just like dog walking anywhere these days you come back home with a stinking bag of something you wish you didn’t have to deal with…

Been reading and listening to Joanna Penn ‘Successful Author Mindset’ – really good – but then I like her style. Still reading ‘Barkskins’ -Annie Proulx – that is a delicious long read in a ‘savour every word kind of way’. I thrashed through Lorelie James latest and much craved ‘Unbreak My Heart’ the conclusion of her Sierra and Boone story that fans were waiting for  – bliss 🙂

I have picked up the threads of my rewrite earlier than planned and am pleased with progress.

Bit Of A Dry Update…:)

Hell – This Time we are living through is interesting though – may we all survive long enough to see it through.




All Change…

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Unpacked and staying!

Dan re shod him. Bud and I have been doing ground work and pre-ride routines and I have been re discovering the joys of ‘Passenger’ rides  – in the ‘safe environment’ of the field – letting self drift with him and in the process finding my childhood somehow again – after I got over feeling like a Nelly and wondering what the folk on the bus thought – it became a  mindful – meditative – process – as  pony poo picking up is to Yoga – and  was cathartic, both he and I were very restful – I suppose I should say at this point he was tacked up, and I did have my hat on, and I did hold the neck strap, and make sure he didn’t step in his reins 🙂 – so it wasn’t quite like going back to my childhood of hopping on the nearest moorland pony and disappearing for the day!

I have been reading the Tao Of Equus Linda Kohanov- which is not an easy read – but IS well worth the effort- and the combo of that, and the unease I have been feeling about taking Bud to the yard – leaving my two ponies at home – suddenly erupted beyond me being shy and became a definite ‘No he is staying here and we will all stay together!’ Equally, I suddenly decided to ask Dan my Farrier to repad and shoe Rufus – both ponies came through the winter extraordinarily fat – both are usually lean fellows – I am not looking to ride Flax but if I did he rides barefoot anyway – Rufe does not.

I found myself once again cleaning kit and washing soft horse furnishings and literally getting the cobwebs and birds nests out of the corner of the barn where such things hang.

It is obviously MY FAULT that the heavens have opened and most horse related activity in the land has ceased 🙁

What ever comes next I do not know…

But I take advice from many folks that if you  always get what you have always got- by doing X – then do something else.

So I tossed my to do list, and my time table, and my aims and goals, and thought about why I want to ride – and what I want for them – I ride to feel free – but I have stumbled with them at times, and the upshot has been Rufe and Flax are now ‘Evergreen’ and field bound  – OK – it is one of several fields, and they have a view , and they are a long way from forgotten dopes on a rope under a bridge – but really? May be my riding activity is as much about them being free as me – where as before I tended to think

‘ Well it is me that wants to go for the ride…’

I am not sure that was ever all there was to it  – they never once refused to go, and they are always keen to move fields, always queued up to see what is happening  – I know plenty of folk do have the problem of horses being herd bound/barn sour or nappy – mine never were – but even so they become more confident together than apart  – if it isn’t part of their day – and it hasn’t been.

My ponies were  forest born wild, and born free…

Rather like Linda in her book I have had this feeling that ‘something is wrong’ but have dismissed it thinking that it is largely me – feeling guilty for not being able to carry on their ‘training’ to a higher level,  or because they are chubby or  because Rufus gets sweet itch and Flax needs me to be a better leader than I am – but actually I think that what is wrong, is that they feel trapped, and left out, and I can feel that – and after reading ALL of Linda’s book  -I am prepared to give it more credence as a possibility than I was doing before.

I was very interested in her comments on emotional congruency and how important it is- and I realised that this doesn’t just apply to Buddy and I – ie me putting on a Happy Face which he knows is false and then wondering why he is jumpy! This was also an issue with Flax –  where as Rufe is stallion like in his ability to ignore my forcefield, and is confident enough in himself not to worry – if I am there physically that is enough for him – but the other two ask for the whole me and the real me – mad, bad or happy – as long as I am not pretending.

I had a brief session with a friend’s horse back in the spring and she commented that I was looking beyond the horse and out of the arena  all the time – and she was right – in an attempt to take pressure off the horse I looked to the horizon – in that case outside the school – and then thought about my problems  or what a nice day it was – the disconnect  from her old mare on my rope was immediate. With Buddy I noticed last week that when he is trying to canter on line if I look to the horizon he bends to the outside and finds it hard to strike off – if my focus is ahead of him but on the line of the circle he has little trouble maintaining bend and gait and strikes off comfortably enough, for him.

When riding – I am thinking I may also do this a legacy from riding  the older horses that I have had for years – OK with Bud – until there is a sudden lack of confidence ,caused by lack of regular riding, failing to top up his innate common sense – but if there is  -then there is a ‘turn around and run’ potential – till I snap out of it enough to give him a lead either in the saddle or on foot – until of course last Autumn when I got exasperated while standing by him waiting for some sheep to pass-  and he turned around and ran from ME – leaving me face down on the ground… and him lucky to be found ‘uninjured’ – our relationship has taken time to rebuild and is still doing so…

IN Flax’s case it used to be that he would try and get behind me or on top of me which was only noticeable when I rode out alone – it is my guess now it was the same thing – I was thinking over the horizon ‘not looking at the spook’ but over doing it to the point where he felt my absence dangerously, I was then getting scared, and looking away even more  -and getting cross with my self , and frustrated with myself at not being able to make him understand me – silly now I think about it of course – he doesn’t have to understand me he just has to trust me and for that I have to be genuine and present – congruent in what I am asking and what I am doing and feeling.


Flax May 2014 day before The Long Ride Home In Tears…

So  There Is Much To Think About…

AS for Rufus? The little wise one  is beginning to resemble the Laughing Budda statue and it will be good to wander where we will again …:)


Long Ride To Be Free….


Wr5t5ng Wee2 – exactly…:)



Tips on carrying your work A to B constantly?

Don’t ask me – that was a question.

The Writing Week then…

Starting to think about how I want to change Hacked Off so I took advantage of the dry bright weather and got outside as much as possible so I could ‘sort of’ think about it while I was working with my horses. I have a few ideas and know roughly what I want but within them there are choices to make about some of the characters and their roles – dog walking has now become an opportunity to talk to the imaginary actors playing the characters as we sit around an imaginary big table and talk about what I want them to do for me – I don’t have close neighbours so I can actually talk out loud – which is a bad habit to get into but I could drink and smoke my way though writing and I don’t do either of those so…

Having ditched Platform U last week due to their appalling automated subscription issues I awaited day 10 extermination with total disinterest – only to find an email telling me it was ‘all a mistake’  and as I am an ‘active and involved’ member my membership goes on – this made me flaming mad as to me it says – ‘drat if you were a quite sort we might have  either got rid of you or got more money out of you’ – of course I am not paranoid.:)

I had noticed that my thread there about the mistake I made with Blue Host has  not exactly been taken down but can only be got at through my profile which I reckon is the same thing – that annoyed me too as it was fair comment and other people might make the same mistake and it was expensive. Now I have the dilemma of sticking around disgruntled or putting up and shutting up  with something I pay for, is useful but mostly operates in a way that I find uncomfortable. Like the horse with the wrinkle under the saddle I expect I will explode bucking from time to time – the trick if I stay will be to keep it fair just and reasonable – and useful to any one else inclined to not see the wood for the trees on this journey. Either way it is a distraction I don’t need. So they get one more month/sub payment and then I will reassess – by then I hope husband will be back at work and my normal working hours will be resumed.

Reading This Week?

Lindsey Davies – Falco series again for the umpteenth time.


Yes – in the impending cancellation of PU I scouted writing Podcasts etc and found a fair few – my Itunes thing is now packed with them – cannot list them here or say if they are useful – I was looking for UK ones for a change – and there were some – I just haven’t sat at desk long enough to listen and comment but it seems a vibrant selection packed with view points of all kinds.

Quote Of The Week…

Goes to this link of Michael Hyatt Which seems so true right now.

Second Quote Of The Week…

Goes to my tiler Simon ‘Happy Days’ which is fast becoming a favourite around here 🙂






Riding Week…

Must Change That… My Horsey Week?Water horse 4

Any way – we went and saw Monty Roberts and gang from Intelligent Horsemanship at Kingston Maurwood – brilliant and very glad we went – busy and packed evening.

Spent rest of week utilising the dry ground to work/play with all three horses – brilliant fun – Flax starting to do liberty work with me now which is an intense feeling between self and horse like invisible sparks that only he and I can see. It doesn’t – in our case- mean we can go out and about together though.

Both Rufe and Flax are extremely fat after this winter which is unusual so I am having to be careful with what they are eating  – I don’t want them standing in doing nothing and the field won’t take a smaller plot without damage – so they get plenty of hay to try and keep the sugar levels steady but I am aware that they are at risk of Laminitis.

Buddy on the other hand is about right weight wise and is getting extra grass in the day times. iT is 5 weeks till Dan can re shoe him and by then I hope our daily ground work and walking will mean we can get out and about once again.

I cleaned the tack. Washed my kit.

And Generally Had A Horsey Week 🙂


Spring Is As Spring Does …

The Writing Week…



Started and ended with some good thought provoking reading and listening around my favourite Blogs and Podcasts while starting to form a revised plot for  Hacked Off  – the ‘cast’ and I have after lunch meetings while I am walking the dogs and I am pleased with the new ideas I am having  on that score too.

One thought occupying my mind this week is the subject of goals and goal setting – on the one hand I follow the coaching from Michael Hyatt and co about having plans and ‘Living Forward’ as his new book totes but at the same time I  take a point made by Will Jonathan on the Tiny Buddha Blog that ‘Getting what you want can sabotage you is well worth a look at and a deep think about.


Do you plan?

Or  – do you see goals as ‘a natural consequence or enjoying something and doing it well’? [From the article mentioned above]

Further to that this week I enjoyed Michael Hyatt and Michelle Cushatt in their weekly conversational Podcast – ths week it was about 7 pieces of advice Michael would give to ‘would be CEOs’ – Not something I initially thought would interest me –  But I quote  from the  show transcription

‘The first one is your position is not your identity. Second, your position is temporary, not permanent. Third, your position is a privilege, not a right. Fourth, your position is about faithfulness, not achievement. Fifth, your position is about them, not you. Sixth, your position is about stewardship, not ownership. Seventh (so good), your position will require more than you think you can provide on your own, so prepare for it now. Don’t wait until you have the job to do the work you need to do. ‘

This Is Your Life Podcast Season 7, Episode 5 Transcribed by Ginger Schell. – Podcast Link – – If you want to listen.

Why did this interest me particularly?

The first point snagged me because I am always interested in how we humans align our identity to what we do and then we struggle when we don’t do that thing any more or we can’t achieve good results – I am between phases in my life right now  – I HAVE been a Farmer and NOW I am a Writer – I ALSO ride horses and that makes me a Rider – but I haven’t ridden for months which causes doubt – if my writing never gets revised will I ever be an Author? I still own a farm but I actually have no livestock so technically I AM still a Farmer yet I don’t respond with that when asked ‘What do you do?’ Saying ‘I write…’ sounds pretentious to me – yet it just about describes my life now – I live on the page in words that I type…

Michael and Michelle’s conversation made me think hard about what would happen if I didn’t write any more, didn’t finish the books – that voice in my head said ‘What else IS there?’ 🙁 I think a rethink!! 🙂 I am already an Author – of this Blog and two others for a start 🙂  Which isn’t the point they were trying to make but demonstrates how tightly we all cling to who we are being related to what we do – and not how we do it…

Sad But True Though…

This is my last week at Platform U – Michael Hyatt’s membership site – why? Troubles with  the renewal of the sub’ every month this year for no apparent reason and a feeling that it is time to move on – taking with me a lot of interesting things I have learnt and experienced and a large dislike of ‘virtual assistants’ running Customer Service and Personality Social Media  contacts- it creates an image of  ‘Unreachables’ that is contrary to the public face  shown – and his isn’t the only larger site I have come across with this problem – again with the issue of  Time Zones for these sites which are Global not being addressed properly  for the benefit of the customer.

I still think Michael Hyatt is a great coach and would always recommend checking out his stuff – this little British female unpublished fiction writer found herself a little out of her depth at times but I have paddled ashore non the worse for wear.

Spring Cleaning Then…

Dawn On A Spring Day

Dawn On A Spring Day

If you like –  of thoughts and hang outs – and  the week still allowed me to venture into some new territory –

At   and seem good starting points 🙂

So I keep moving along and learning as I go…



The One Where I Get Bitten On The Bum Twice And Don’t Want To Sit Down. OR My Writing Week…


Progression – To Conscious Incompetent…

Nothing like being a Newby to make  mistakes ‘no one has EVER done before’ which is how come I ended up with three separate accounts at three times the cost for my three websites when one account would have let me have 5 on it. Or looking at it another way I could now have 15 websites….

I discovered this only when contacting Blue Host through the ‘amazing’ chat- bubble -helpline- with -inbuilt -delay to query a price rise from about £90 to £150 each site – this was when the assistant pointed out my mistake – I can pay a fee of aprox $149 and have them amalgamate and even get a refund BUT so far I haven’t done this as the instructions to ‘back up everything’, ‘fill in cancellation forms’ and trust to thought bubbles with time lags as a means of communication – frankly terrified me as did the confusion that arose as to whether the sites would be down between times…

Emotional sort of day(!!)

But there you go ‘you can’t make omelettes without breaking eggs’ would be my take out this week – it WILL feel personal – £300 is always personal if you have spent it pointlessly.


I will use the telephone to speak to Blue Host one day soon and clarify the procedure in a way that the chat bubbles with inbuilt delay couldn’t and I will find out what ‘back up everything means’ ie content and or settings. I will ascertain the cost and then – if I feel OK to set it all in motion I will proceed – after all I would rather find mistakes now in the site than when I have books to sell here…


This brings me to the second bite in the bum

Actually it happened first technically – but there you go – there I was having a coffee break catching up with FB and 31 Day Blogger Darren Rowse and he had posted something I took a hefty  double look at- European VAT rule changes that apparently came in LAST year and something called MOSS – now I am VAT reg in my other incarnation but this had escaped me – ANY digital product sold incurs VAT at rate of the buyers EU country of residence and that requires one or two bits of proof to be kept for 10 years AND registration for VAT in Each EU country OR with MOSS AND the absolute kicker is there is no threshold of income level this applies – you sell an ebook or course or any digital thing and it applies from the first sale – go figure- as my US chums would say.

The UK Gov has said a threshold applies to sales in UK but you still have to know what you are doing and register – you can’t just sell to resident Brits that IS probably against free trade rules! AND if you are in the rest of the world selling into the EU all this still applies.


Are your eyes rolling in your head or are you rolling on the floor laughing?

What have YOU done this week that lets YOU see the hill  YOU still have to climb to live YOUR dreams? A hill is not flat – and a mountain is not a hill – when I start yodelling hit the deck because I am still going up the side of this rock face…


Have I done any revision?

A little. On both In Plain Sight and Hacked Off.

Have I done any typing of Q3?



Do I feel alive?

Oh yes – it hurts so I must be. 🙂

Is that The Sound Of Music tune I hear? 🙂



2015 Train Leaves Station…

What  a privilege it has been this year

Hasn’t ‘always’ seemed like it but I picked up some early architect plans when cleaning house prior to decorating that were drawn last year and as the conservatory starts to go up next week I realised that what was on the paper and then looked an impossible dream – is all around me now. WOW!

White Boarding

White Boarding


That is an aside really to what has happened with my writing during this time – suffering from displacement and all that goes with moving out of a home into a mobile home and then re discovering the silence and joy of being alone to work – only to find I over did it and let myself get unfit and stale.

Trying to deal with delivering a work flow to my own satisfaction in the face of being at the mercy of everyone else’s requirements either family or the guys working on the house.

I haven’t always got it right.


I have tried not to let it stop all work – if not typing up my main goal project then I have been thinking about websites and blogs, even if that is listening to a Podcast or joining in a webinair – there haven’t been too many days I haven’t thought or done something – and usually quite a lot – to keep me on track.


I have hitched my waggon to numerous big engines of influence and guidance and to some smaller ones to get me up the hills of frustration and delay but now as we chug in to the home stretch I have got off  the moving trains and am watching them leave the station without me – why?


I have to get out and walk a while – carry my work through to the end of the journey – no one can do that for me though some will keep me company enroute – it will be my route and not theirs – I am not a ‘good follower’ which a mentor advocated was a requirement to succeed in life the other day to me and to his ‘followers’ and he is right I am not. I would suggest that neither is he!


No one can do very much alone in this world

We all need help and encouragement and guidance  but we also need to fly free to achieve our dreams – we cannot live by committee nor do business that way nor write books that way – not if we want the satisfaction of skidding tattered and torn into the grave knowing we gave it our all and lived to the max – having the courage to stand alone and find your way between the sign posts and choose which route, and when to take it is a huge part of that – hitching my wagon to a Star and trailing in its reflected glory is not for me just to say I belong somewhere  – I belong in me. You belong in you.


Listen. Learn. Move On.


So I am on the platform of life watching the trains leave and around me are the amazing and wonderful things I have in my life in all their messy stages and it IS time now to take it all forward – get the house finished, move back in, and get my series through revision and out there…


What is it time for you to do?





A Good Week to Give up…

If I had a mind too and I don’t.



The long awaited Broad Band and land line phone were finally set up by BT and so we got our WiFi back at the exact same moment as my new Lap Top declared it’s hard drive had died.

It hadn’t – but that needed several trips to the shop to find that out, meanwhile it was obvious that while the iPhone 6  has been a God send this last few weeks – nothing has backed up via the Warm Patch – all the machinery needed to back up and catch up many weeks worth and I think I made  our own Black Hole over Dorset in the Internet.

It also made me see how vulnerable Scrivener projects are between older machines and operating systems and new machines and soft ware and the fact that some back up  suggestions I had followed only backed up partially which meant had my hard drive had to be replaced I would have been in the mire…

I signed up for One Drive but realised Scrivener didn’t travel well to it so I cancelled that and enlarged my Drop Box facility for a year aprox £106 and if I make a new folder and copy a scriv. project to it and then drag that to the Drop Box it travels just fine – can’t open it on the iPhone as Scrivener isn’t fully mobile – yet.

I have done all I can do right now – given husband home with bad tooth and bad knee and house project hitting frustration it has been a tricky week to keep spirits up.

I have a feeling next week will be all but impossible to maintain my blog schedule – I see Brendan Brushard is partnering with Oprah with a motivational product and that Geoff Goins may be doing his Intentional Blogging course again – I feel I need some ‘Oomph’ in the back ground while I paint the house – I might give them both a go…


I have been typing when I can I still want to finish the current WIP type up quickly as Holly Lisle is firing up to launch her brilliant course How To Revise Your Novel on 8th Dec and I am looking forward to rejoining the group there and  seeing new faces  galore.

So it WOULD have been a good week to give up – but I am NOT going to – I’l just go on slowly and keep scanning the horizon as I inch towards the destination.

What ever it is that YOU are struggling with – keep going slowly- you can only fail if you stop.


Once You Are In The Mixture -You Are Someone Else’s Cake…



Once you are in the mixture you are someone else’s cake…

This applies to membership sites and advice to find ‘outposts’ to blog on . However tempting it is because it feels companionable  and you might learn something…

Beware there is conflicting advice…

‘Hang out where your future customers dangle’  – this can backfire if the membership site becomes unsuitable and when other members also feel aggrieved and ripped off by them – you  have to either speak up or say nowt – and live with the consequences for you and your work/product of which ever choice you make.

‘Don’t build your house on a rented lot’ – this generally means self host your blog – a must if you aim to be commercial. Even if no one reads it for years…

‘Make your self useful on other people’s platforms’ – this one is a tricky one – we all want to belong and be useful – on someone else’s site – it can only be with their permission and not used as an excuse to blog about your product on their platform or against their ethics. You can also end up feeling used and fed up if your unsought efforts are unappreciated or feeling you are in the ‘hot seat’ if they cock up.

This Weeks Take Out…

Keep your best work on your own site and always link back to it.


Mixed Bag Of Take Out…

I read a lot of what might be called Happy Clappy Mumbo Jumbo  – it keeps me semi sane and stops me boring the backsides off my neighbours and friends when I am having a Bad Day.
The joy of the internet is now that you can sign up for all kinds of Mumbo Jumbo stuff  free  or other wise – Yummy – It is better than chocolate and cheers me up and isn’t fattening – sometimes it even gets me off my arse and back to the writing or out side to run or ride.

There are some lovely kind people Out There.

They are often incredibly generous with their ‘Free Stuff’ and in exchange for an email contact usually provide a magazine of delight to pass the coffee break with or to get me running with gusto after my obligatory 2 x treble shots of caffeine on rising  – so I don’t smoke – but I am not a saint.
I have read stuff from folks all over the world, chatted to them and joined their groups for a few hours or a few days – or taken up residence and rented space.

I am quite happy joining in and Having A Go.

But  I wish The Marketeers on line would work out that the common type of launch process is getting boring and that automated and outsourced stuff and staff and over delegation deadens the user experience.
When I need a shoulder to lean on and I pick up a Happy Clappy Book I know it is a book – if you choose an on line source of inspiration, kindness and friendship – community even – it is fairly rough when you work out it is an auto responder that just called you a ‘Gorgeous Chick’ and that your series of welcoming and warm emails are pre programmed to draw you deeper, depending on your preferences, whilst rifling your wallet and trading on your misery.
If I am starting to notice this then it IS time for a change…

Hot Rox or C Weed?

It is a bit like lying on a massage table blindfold and wondering  … because with coaching, support, mentoring and spiritual guidance you are baring more than your back side – you may even be baring your soul – to all and some of that may come back and bite you.

My Take Out Recipe?

Stick to the free stuff and put your credit card out of reach before you start to get drawn in by the seduction of a launch you may not notice is aiming for you – when you are vulnerable spending money on rubbish is worse than eating too much chocolate and can do you a great deal more harm.
Any thing that makes you feel good can be addictive – even things you don’t ingest.

Trust me

 You can do this if you just take the next step – just do something towards your dream – think how much you can achieve without spending another penny or wasting another second…I could even finish the series I am writing.

Research Week Or The Best Of The Rest…

Thought provoking week this week – been researching and setting up a practise ebook down load to exchange for starting an email list.

When I do this ‘for real’ it will likely be based about the fiction I am writing but just for a change I thought I would go for a non fiction – I researched on line and following the collective advice I chose a subject that people ask me about – how do I cope with change? Probably as badly as most other folk TBH but according to Guru’s, Mentors and Coaches, Course Providors collectively that doesn’t matter because it doesn’t have to be perfect it just has to be Out There…

I have watched and read blogs and Pod casts, Periscopes and Blabs and free give away 54 Easy Steps To Get Your X Out There material all week.

I signed up for a lot of ‘Good Stuff’ and now I feel I was led by the key board into the back allies of Information and Knowledge as far from the highway of Education as I ever want to go….

My Take Away?

  1. Did these people train in Peckham Market with Totter’s Independent Traders? It is the impression they give.
  2. A money back guarantee is not a guarantee of standards or quality – or qualification – either on behalf of the provider or for the student to take away.
  3. I felt I was in a wagon train, having paid to be taken where few have successfully been and that the glint of their easy won gold was pulling me in.

    What happened to my practise  e book?

    Not a lot. I decided I didn’t want to set the thing up half researched and poorly formatted and that my experiences of change are just that – at best funny and worst painful – but egged on by all in sundry I was sorely tempted to stick it Out There, as proof what happens when you flock to other folk’s calls and don’t heed your own mind. I haven’t spent any money on this – that I haven’t had refunded.

    My Advice should you need it…

    Gang warily! There are solid folk Out There.

    Stick to a subject you know or the work in hand and do your best to make the product worth having or you will be asked for money back and your News Letters will hit the Junk box.

    Another Idea?

    This doesn’t help me at all with my own E Marketing that I will need at some point in the future but then by then I might have had another idea…



Need To Pull Out Of A Tail Spin?

When nothing else matters and nothing else comes close…?

But suddenly you are falling through your dreams immobilised by some thing or other you never saw moving and the ground is coming up to meet you?

Ask your self one question –

Why Am I Doing This?

Hang on to the answer to save yourself.

Today life gave me a good poke off a cliff and as I tore my nails off on the ever shifting ground I heard my self shouting –


‘I am writing for my life.’ The answer came back. Nothing else comes close.

Writing = Freedom.

Avoid Falling Flat

Avoid Falling Flat

This in turn reminded me

‘If you fail to plan, you plan to fail…’ I don’t plan to fail this side of hell.

So am back riding the desk horse and chasing my dreams across the page and the shadows from my soul.


Seven Sites That Have Helped Me Get This Far…

  1.  On line writing and critique group I have belonged to for a few years.
  2. On line writing school – The Best.
  3. You can’t get much better than this for horses.
  4. + Platform U.  I like this guy. I like his style and I like his resources.
  5. Wouldn’t have worked out how to adapt my WordPress site without his free video content.
  6. Relatively new for me but encouraging me already.
  7. See below
West of West Bay  - as good a site as any to end the day ...

West of West Bay – as good a sight as any to end the day …

West of West Bay – as good a site as any to end the day at…


I am NOT affiliated to any of these sites they have just helped me and deserve a mention:)

Still Thinking This Through


Good place to think

Looking, listening and learning – what do I see? Hear? Know now? For Sure?

If I am going to sell ebooks.
1. I need books – finished, revised and beta read. Formatted, jacketed and I need to be able to upload them to the places where they can be sold.
2. I need a self hosted web page/s if I am going to run a shop for direct down loads and giveaways.
3. I am going to need a blog front to create interest and do all the things blogs do – link to Face book and Twitter etc.
4. It would be sensible to make it all look similar – ‘professional identity’ Back grounds, pictures etc with all the expected widgets and gizmos and buttons.



Then we get into SEO  – well I will – when I get that far.
Most of that makes sense to me as I familiarise myself with it and mostly just requires me to just do it, and then get on with writing more books.
But in Guru Land and Advisor Plains and Coach Worlds where I  wander wondering at the moment – I am starting to see issues and to feel uncomfortable. Or may be I am just being British.
The primary sources have been in this game from the start – highly successful now – they are no longer alone – they don’t rely on the free third party software they suggest – their teams use the Pro versions – if they don’t use their own designed in house.
 They don’t sit down and write every day several times a day they ‘fill buckets’ and ‘schedule content’ – they launch ever tinier bits of ‘How To’ with mind trapping hooks, wallet opening, loan inducing marketing strategy – they talk of scarcity and of making the mark feel they belong to a community… they talk about peddling your message…  Of ‘monetizing platforms’ to the point you don’t have anything to sell of your own – you just recommend other folks stuff or  carry advertisements… reminds me of that song ‘Money For Nothing’ and everything is ‘Amazing’ and ‘Super’ and they want you to be ‘a good follower’.
 Why? They didn’t follow anyone. This brings me to the second and third tier guru, advisor or coach aka some one like you and me who has a product to sell being encouraged to pay money to learn to imitate someone else – the fact is that the up shot of my several months of study on this – is that I now see the genuine folk I thought were real are actually preprogrammed and scheduled team auto responses cleverly packaged and aimed at me – so do I really want to schedule email, Facebook and Twitter comments throughout the day or worry about Thursday’s ‘content?’ Do I scour other folks sites to parasite my blog posts off their headlines or just pass them on? Or do I speak when I have some thing to say? Get on with writing my books and getting them ready to sell?
I have to say at this point I don’t know – I keep sheep I am not one – BUT all the folks I have come across are genuine and generous and if that translates to them making mega bucks by selling a tiny product for a few ‘bucks’ millions of times does that make them wrong or make the advice bad? No it doesn’t.


It seems to me – at this point in time – that most are saying the same things –
1. Don’t wait for perfect – go with what you have or have decided on and alter it later.
2. Product and Marketing are equally important – there is no one without the other.
3. No matter how big these people turn out to be they all say start using free stuff and don’t give up the day job with out a plan – and as you grow buy in what you need in terms of design and help even – heaven forbid – content, then look at giving up paid employment.
This all seems perfectly solid, sensible and responsible advice and rather at odds with the ‘Money For Nothing’ content products messages that seep in.
So I find my self deep in hooks lines and sinkers and trying to clear wood from trees to see which bit of the jungle out here I am in now.
1. What tech stuff do I need for a frame work?
2. What buttons will I need to get pushed?
3. What strategy for marketing will I choose?
4. Who am I?
5. What am I?
6. Why do I want to do this?
7. What do I want to do?
Answers 4 – 7 Marie-Claire is a writer who wants to sell the books she writes.